以为..

msn很久都不能开了
因为version过时了
好一阵子都没上msn
看不到你有没有上线

怎知刚刚下载了新的msn
你却一次都没上来过
还以为你真在拼考试
刚才却在fb上
看到你给她的like...

看来
我真的要对你死心了
我对不起你
对不起

me..?

最近都很少上来
很想上来
发泄一下
可惜
都没有时间

还好
我没疯掉
多谢阿爸
赐给我安稳的心去面对这一切的一切

只是现在
我被确认患上了心理病
谁诊断我的病？
不是什么医生
家人连带我
去救我那张
可以靠它吃饭的脸
的时间都没有
怎么又时间带我去看什么心理医生呢？
对
是我自己诊我自己的病
奇怪？
不
我清楚我自己的状况
现在的我
每晚
都是留着黄黄的脓
肮脏的血
无情的泪水入睡

我无法面对这样的自己
曾几何时
我是漂亮的
我是可爱的
我是美丽的

现在
全都没了
我真的很伤心
不过我不是这样就放弃的！
我要自己走出一片天
长大后
过着自己想过的日子
我是独居动物
她是独居动物
你是独居动物？
是
芯慈
是独居动物

对。。
我无法面对自己
现在
连自己最喜欢的shopping
我都放弃
不去了

怎么办？
我的梦想
是当个亲切的空中小姐
我要赚了他们的钱
去救动物
因为动物对你是不离不弃的
不像人类
忘恩负义
背叛人心
我讨厌人类
i really hate them..

so is this some sort of 心理病？
是吧
现在如果你看到我笑
都只是表面之颜

我这只独居动物
都不懂要等到几时
才能发自内心地笑？
期待这一天的到来
加油！

决定

决定了
不再对你思念

偶尔的思念
不会过分吧？

消除了对你的思念
对你
对我
都好

我只希望能够在你身边
默默地为你做些什么
你感受到了吗？

我只要你快乐
不要坏
乖一点
希望能为你的心理
抹上药膏
看着它愈合
我
就会离开

让你和你的她
过着幸福快乐的日子

我
也到另一个地方去
寻找我的幸福和快乐

忠心祝福你
和你的她 =)

念

宝贝
你知道思念你
是多么痛苦吗？
每当想起你
你旁边一定会出现她
我知道你的心里只有她
我
可能连一颗沙都不如
对吗？
可是我要你知道
你在我心里
比任何珍珠钻石来得更宝贵

我知道
我这一辈子
再也没有机会做你的宝贝
但是你永远是我的宝贝
我最爱的你。。

谁能帮我
不再让我想你呢？
痛苦
是说不出
哭不出
表现不出的痛苦

我不懂还需要痛苦多久
让我踏出这个痛苦的圈圈
永远只要你幸福  快乐 =)

你。。。

宝贝
有听苏打绿的无眠吗？
去听听嘛好不好？
里头的歌词和感情，
完完全全地诠释了我对你的心。。。
希望你不会讨厌我
希望总有一天你能知道
我只爱过你一个人
爱着你一个人
也永远只爱你一个=)

missin..

喂。。
为什么我会那么想念你？
三年了。。。
现在。。
我多么希望你能像以前那样叫我宝贝。。
叫我老婆。。
我也叫你老公好不好？
希望你不会讨厌我
不会对我有反感。。
我只要你知道
我这一生中
只爱过你一个。。
我永远都在等着你。。
宝贝我爱你 =)

show

if i hv a choice to choose..
i would choose show..
cz i think i'll b happy together with show..
from the way show live's..
i think it fits me..
haha~
check him out..
nice guy  =)

if..

if the boy i like would sing this song 2 me..
i'll thank God ..
cz the boy i like is like super handsome..
and its impossible..
cz we haven't met yet  XD

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars  =)

holiday!!

GREAT!!
its holiday!!
woohhooooo~~
haha..so happy..
finally there's time to relax..
finally there's time not to wake up so early every morning and doing homework EVERYnight/..hahahaha~

alright..so wats da plan 4 tiz 2 weeks holiday?
first thing first sure hv to put most of my time in the band lor~~
practice..camp..and mooncake festival parade..
if it was the old me..
i surely will hate all these activities..
but now i'm new..i'm gonna enjoy it! XD

second will be exercising (keeping fit)..
badminton badminton and badminton..
and if i manage to get a new swimming costume on tiz saturday..
say HELLO~ to my dear old swimming pool..
i hvn been touching a drop of water from tat swimming pool since i was form1..
cz afternoon school makes my time not so matching..
i think tats the reason tat make me grew so plum and needs to exercise very very hard right now..
haha~

well..as for other..
i'll go shopping..
surfing the net...
watever i like..
cz itz holiday..
itz MINE!!

last but not least..
doing homework  =.='''
itz 2 weeks holiday..
teachers from my school are insane..
so..'ll juz try to finish up my homework as fast as i can..
2 enjoy my holiday...=)

favorite brands

i love~~
Air Space  &  Black Wing..

sooo cool!!
bt they r not my style..haha~

my dream~

my dreams..
ermmmmmm..
i hv sooo many dreams in my life..
lets start from my best one...hehe

firstly..
i would like to go to Hawaii(USA)..
i love there..
i should b a paradise for someone like me..
it feels so romantic..
i might be going there with my boyfriend or my husband
someday when i've already grown up..
and surely..
i've already earned a lot a lot and a alot of $$$$$..
haha..tat's the main point~ =.='''

then..
if i hv my own house..
i'll keep lot and lots of animals in my house..
IF i can..
haha~
the minimum for me is 2 dogs..
any kind of dogs will do for me^^

ermm..
i'll go to the beach every weekend..
sometimes with my family..
sometimes with my friends..
mostly..
i'll go exercise EVERYDAY..
(i dun feel well 2day..
yesterday i din done any exercieses..
luckily i'll b going for badminton tiz evening..
haha~)
sometimes jogging..badminton..swimming..
wow..wat a life..
i love it!!
haha =)

Gathering of new and ex members of chio min band..

juz came back from tat gathering..
actually i saw it on fb bt duno wat is going on..haha~
so juz went there last minute..
cz m afraid none of our band members will b there..
itz not polite to treat an ocation like tiz which was prepared so hard from ex-members..

the climax of 2nite is..
a senior cried without saying anything..
cz evrybody hv 2 share something on tat night..
so when itz his turn..
he cried without saying anything..
i stared blankly..
i din thought tat a band cn made a man cry infront of so many people..
so man people mayb he dun noe..

i think after 2nite..
i hv 2 change my mind of wat i think about tiz band..
i won't take it as a burden..
and i'm clear tat my job now is not only 2 make tiz band improve..
my job is also 2 make tiz band memorible..
make tiz band a piece of the parcel of our live..

i'l try 2 make tat..
with the help of other band members..

A BIG THANK YOU
to all ex-members..
especially tat senior who cried..
all of u made me wake up from my dream..
a dream of 'band is a burden and itz nt fun'..

i really now how a good leader is meant for a good band..=)

goodnitE~

suuport

kenichi tago,
i'll support u always!!
u r my star..
u r my hero..
u make me live till 2day..
i support u!!! =)

new

几百年前..
就有人开始blogging..
how abt me?
juz starting..
although i'm ade 16 yrs old..
haha..
OLD~


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